Time Capsule

I just received an email from myself that I wrote a year ago today. I wrote it at http://www.bored.com/emailcapsules/
It was great to read what I was thinking back then. I am going to include it in this post with my next "time capsule."

Dear Future Version of Me,
this is kind of cool. Let's hope i have this email long anough to get this. I probably will, it's gmail. So...life is pretty exciting right now. I am probably moving to LA to nanny for a year at least. It will help me save up money for my volunteer trip to an orphanage in south america or africa. And money for my trip to france or italy (study abroad) and ILP (teach english in china or russia- like Caidy). I know, I have a lot of goals. These will all lead me to the peace corps. I'm not sure where school fits in but the peace corps helps pay for school when i'm done so maybe I'll do that when I'm married. I am getting married:) lol. I'd like to work at zion ponderosa resort, for the recreation and because the GM, Michael Caine, is so freakin nice, but the nanny position is better in the long run (for one, it pays SO much better). Life is good right now. I just lived with Cathy Larson for two months while Caidy is in China and i finish up my second semester at UVSC. What a blessing that was! to live in such a peaceful welcoming home. My relationship is pretty good with my mom and dad, in fact my dad and i are going to see Night at the Museum tonight at movies 8. i'm glad cuz i want to see him before i go. My relationship with my dad is really good right now. I've learned to let things go and accfept him for who he is. I just can't be around him to much i think is how it works. I get to see jordana this weekend when the nanny family flies me out to LA to "check out things." I am so excited!! Jo and i had a really good talk on friday and tara isn't speaking to me cuz i offended her over the whole Shawn ordeal. I didn't get why she wasn't answering my calls but then jo told me. Tara can be so....nevermind. i love her when we are talking and that's all that matters. that's my life and those are my plans. we'll see whether my plans match the lord's plans for me. can't wait!!
Written at Tue Apr 24, 2007



The new time capsule (i hope I don't read it before then since it is now a post):

Dear Future Version of Me,
So my plans have changed a bit. the peace corps still sounds good especially since watching Oprah's Big Give. I really need to start making a difference, not matter how it looks (be it time, money, or love). But for now the peace corps aren't quite inside the scope. I am going to Cal Poly Pomona next year (2009-2010) after I go somewhere else to achieve the credits to reach me to 60 credits (required for transfer students at cal poly). I'm thinking Snata Monica College, UCLA extension, or Chaiffey college depending on where I live. I have an amazing offer to work at Wagon Wheel when I get back but that requires longer than a year commitment I think. If I am in LA this coming year I won't stay longer than a year because i'll need to live out by Jo to go to Cal Poly. {I need to go there because my degree is commercial recreation. UofU offers the best program but I don't want to be in Utah}. Ai!! What do I do?! I have my whole life ahead of me and so much I want to do. I love it but I need to focus on the present and stop thinking about the future as if it is m present. Life is amazing. I love that I chose this time to live on Earth or that God chose it for me.

I have gained all my weight back but i feel like a completely different person i think in some ways I accept myself more for who I am at this weight. but in some ways I don't because I know I can control the crazy eating and can get back to a more comfortable state of mind and body. I am a child of God but i have lost sight of that in the past few months because I haven't been to church in that long. I am heading to europe where I will still go to church throughout the traveling (thanks to my traveling partners, kara and tanner). I am learning to love myself over and over again it seems. I know I want a husband, but I know I could really make it alone. I am grateful for my friends. I am grateful for the love that I have received from everyone in my life. I am grateful for a higher knowledge.

As far as the country goes. I don't think the war will be over in a year. I think Hillary clinton will win, but it will be extremely close between her and McCain. I want to vote for her but most independents (who i agree with) are voting for McCain. Pres. Hinckley and Pres. Faust died within 6 months of each other and now Pres Monson is the prophet and I hope nothing happens to him. He will make an excellent prophet. I need to know more about what is going on in the world if i am to make a difference there are so many diseases out there that I don't know about that i need to learn of (like the one in extreme home makeover where the brain sinks into the brain stem). I want to be more informed in a year. More active and more giving.I hope to be settled enough to sit down and get a degree, but not enough that I lose my desire to travel and experience new things. whew! that is enough.